Thursday, November 11, 201012:00 AM
■ cos nobody cares
i've almost tried my best to forget
that time when she first mention it we are going to celebrate grandma birthday on this sun,
i was pissed but i held back.
didn't say anything out of anger but i left the hse heading to sch.
how sad i felt on the train to school.
i knew it would be the worst 18th birthday
it will be. you won't know how it feels
celebrate someone birthday on ur own.
the thing is, it isn't going to be her actual bday on sun its mine.
when my mum could practically forgotten mine and emphasize that its her mum birthday on sun. i don't mind she forgot my bday. i doubt she nv rmb it.
i could have practically hide every discontent abt it as long as she didn't emphasize on it.
i would've just went along with it and pretend it wasn't my bday this sun.
i guess nobody really though abt how i felt.
i know its going to be pathetic, but i've to turn up on that day
no excuse.
my family just don't understand or even though abt how i feel i guess.
nobody asked. even my sis.
i tot she might be too stress w her own stuff.
but perhaps it simply becos they dun care.
i got to learn to be stronger i know.
crying doesn't help.
while only tears, hatred and anger turns into a force that pushes u on.
i will bear that in mind, i hope so.
its really a bad year perhaps.
i could be invisible and silent.
that time when she first mention it we are going to celebrate grandma birthday on this sun,
i was pissed but i held back.
didn't say anything out of anger but i left the hse heading to sch.
how sad i felt on the train to school.
i knew it would be the worst 18th birthday
it will be. you won't know how it feels
celebrate someone birthday on ur own.
the thing is, it isn't going to be her actual bday on sun its mine.
when my mum could practically forgotten mine and emphasize that its her mum birthday on sun. i don't mind she forgot my bday. i doubt she nv rmb it.
i could have practically hide every discontent abt it as long as she didn't emphasize on it.
i would've just went along with it and pretend it wasn't my bday this sun.
i guess nobody really though abt how i felt.
i know its going to be pathetic, but i've to turn up on that day
no excuse.
my family just don't understand or even though abt how i feel i guess.
nobody asked. even my sis.
i tot she might be too stress w her own stuff.
but perhaps it simply becos they dun care.
i got to learn to be stronger i know.
crying doesn't help.
while only tears, hatred and anger turns into a force that pushes u on.
i will bear that in mind, i hope so.
its really a bad year perhaps.
i could be invisible and silent.